Lifetimes

There are times
When you wish
Things were different
And you had met in another lifetime.
But I met her
I knew her in that lifetime.

A lifetime ago we were friends, play dates.
You were more than that girl and
I was just that boy.
But time moved on
You went away.
Years later is when we reconnected.

I'm glad that I know now
What I know, because
Back then we were to young to have a clue,
To understand and appreciate.
What we thought we knew.

All grown up in every aspect.
Your body is now proportionate to your head.
But I've got to ask your mom
What she's been feeding you all those years?
Because. DAMN!!!!
Brains, beauty & figure beyond.

So here we now stand
No longer boy & girl
But man and woman.
Lives lived, lessons learned
& at a point
When actions speak volumes.

I take you by the hand,
Embrace you tightly
I can feel your heartbeat.
As I gaze into your soul
& whisper words never before uttered from me to you,


I Love you,
I want you,
I need you.

this is me.

This is me
Here I stand
All alone
Simple & humble.

To thy own self
Always be true
Do you really know me
Like I want you to?

God fearing
God praising
Religious maybe,
Spiritual definitely.

I have past hurts
With deep cuts.
Cynical nature
Nonchalant demeanor

True passionate lover,
Not a fighter, but hopeless romantic.
Counselor, comforter.
Totally family oriented.

This is me
Here I stand.
Take me as I am.
Flawed, but true.

Tell Me!

Tell me
How you feel.
What you need.
Tell me!

Tell me
You are in like with me.
That I'm the one.
Tell me!

Tell me.
You are happy.
That you are pleased.
Tell me!

Tell me.
I messed up.
That I can do better.
Tell me!

Tell me.
You love me.
You are committed.
Tell me!

Tell me
To open my eyes,
To unlock my heart & let you in.
Tell me!

I'll listen!

Where am i?

Within this existence of humanity, there lies a destiny.
My destiny.
It is to be fulfilled, it was prophesied.
A home, family built on love, trust, God.
Where is it? Why haven't I achieved such?
Only empty walls & stained bed sets.
I must change this way of being, living.
Unfulfilled.
I put down & cast away the demons, that occupy my space.
Its not what I want for me.
I deserve so much more than this.
I keep thinking, wanting to believe that
'Yes this is the One'
But you weren't, nor were you.
But she, the one, the true one, the right one, the only one
Is out there, waiting for me to
Cleanse myself, my soul, my aura of the past.
So I embark on this journey of purification & waiting.
No longer looking, seeking.
It is time to get my act together.
So here I go
God! Its in your hands now.

No not you.

You played me!
Crept into my heart, head, bed.
But you weren't into me, the way I was into to you.
Only repetitive one-nighters.
For your selfish needs & desires.
'Let's do this, go here'
But only in your time.
When you were ready.
Damn I see it clearly now.
I must admit you were slick.
Smooth, never saw it coming.
But you did it.

You made me your Bitch.
(You showed me, Me)

Too Soon...

It is too soon, to feel this way.
To be at this point, thinking about the future.
I hardly even know you, nor you me.
I know your body better than I do your mind, your heart.
It feels as if for decades we've been friends.
But reality is real.
We conceptualize images of what would, could be.
But deceiving ourselves is all we did.
Yes it feels right, but its not the best thing for either of us.
So before the point of hurt and disdain occurs.
We sever ties.
Having a mutual respect & admiration for each other.
Knowing what we had was fleeting but special.
You do you, I'll do me.
If in the future circumstances change.

May be, just maybe.


But right now, its too soon!