Disarmed

Disarmed
Captivated by your smile,
Lost in your intense eyes
The moment our four made one
You spoke so softly, saying hi.
A blind man can see what I saw
That thing, that thing that makes
You abandon all else.
Weakened knees, buckling
Under your gaze.
Heart rate intensified
Palms sweaty.
Its cold out but,
I need a cold shower now.
I’m lost, but know exactly
Where I am, no GPS can find me
So lost in your soul.
Chemistry beyond science
A model of a model.
As we sat there conversing
Seems as if you read the transcript of my life
And I had read yours
Knowing the pains, joys,
Loves, likes, wants and needs
Life has given us
Connected on a spiritual
Emotional, mental level
As if we were once
One soul.
Soul mates? Probably, possibly, hopefully!
Only God knows and time will tell…

Goodbyes

I was never good

At saying goodbye!

Why? What made me so?

Was it what I saw when I was young?

Multitasking lovers and friends.

Or was it knowing that,

There was always someone next to replace the ex.

Whatever the reason

I have done you wrong, yes I’ve done wrong

Disregarding people’s emotions and feelings

Just because I didn’t feel the same way again

Lost interest, found a new interest

Didn’t care.

So to the endless end-less relationships

Sorry things happened the way they did.

Sorry I hurt you, caused you pain.

Made you shed tears

I know I knew better

But my selfish ways caused such results

Not all ended badly, in most cases

We became better, even best friends

But in order for me to have a successful relationship

I need to have closure

Closure not in the sense of terminating friendships

But ending the awkwardness, the inability of civil conversations and encounters

So I say to you

Thank you

I’m sorry

Goodbye