Grief.
Its a funny emotion. It hits you when you least expect it.
Today marked a year since my grandmother's passing.
I had been dreading it for the last month. Putting on a brave face and preparing for the dawn!
I woke up and felt fine. Went to work and thought about her but wasn't saddened! Spoke to a friend who made me laugh & smile.
After work I went to a cemetery where my last client is buried. I find solace there and usually talk to God.
I did and shed a tear but no break down.
Went home and was chilling.
Had music playing and Alicia Keys' songs Love is my disease started.
It starts 'when you are gone if feels like my whole world's gone with you'. That shook me. I've listened to that song hundreds of times and thought nice song.
It continues 'how can I ever get used to being without you'. I broke.
I realized how much she was a part of my life, my growth, me!
Shortly another song 'distance & time' started. That brought up fond memories of the time we shared.
Mom, I Love and miss you.
Steve...
