Here you are... Again!.
In your dress multi-colored.
Laced with yellows, oranges
browns and gold! .
When you are here
Your touch send chills down my spine!
Oh I wish we had more time!
But this love is just for a season.
I spend hot summer nights
awaiting your call!
But once u appear
Onto the stars we stare!
Nights with you
are never the same.
Under the sheets is where
I want to stay.
When morning calls
The crisp air I breathe
Alive & refreshed I feel!
Oh how I love you
FALL!
© sjc ♊...
September 23, 2010
August 27, 2010
The exes and me.
I lived my life by several rules.
God almighty first, family next.
Be honest even when it hurts.
Love unconditionally.
Sex is easy, love is complicated. to name a few.
Talking to a friend the other day I mentioned I had to call an ex to wish her a happy birthday.
They couldn't understand why I would do such a thing. after all that is your 'ex!'
My explanation went as follows.
When two people decide to 'date,' 'hang out,' 'chill,' 'kick it,' 'commit,' etc you do so with someone who you actually or probably like. some where along the line into becoming a couple love steps in. my thinking is, I may be wrong, but if we were lovers and friends and along the line we stop being lovers why cant we as mature (believing you are that way) people, remain friends?. Be amicable about it.
If there wasn't any form of violence/abuse (mentally,physically).
Love has to have respect.
There are exes that to this day, I still tell them I love them, and it is true. I do, and I think I always will. They made that sort of impact on my life. I'm not in love with them. (that's just unhealthy, as well as stalkerish)!!!
So to you I say, before you step into the arena of affection, sex, love etc, look carefully and see if this is a person that if things don't work out will still have my back, be a friend.
esjayce.
God almighty first, family next.
Be honest even when it hurts.
Love unconditionally.
Sex is easy, love is complicated. to name a few.
Talking to a friend the other day I mentioned I had to call an ex to wish her a happy birthday.
They couldn't understand why I would do such a thing. after all that is your 'ex!'
My explanation went as follows.
When two people decide to 'date,' 'hang out,' 'chill,' 'kick it,' 'commit,' etc you do so with someone who you actually or probably like. some where along the line into becoming a couple love steps in. my thinking is, I may be wrong, but if we were lovers and friends and along the line we stop being lovers why cant we as mature (believing you are that way) people, remain friends?. Be amicable about it.
If there wasn't any form of violence/abuse (mentally,physically).
Love has to have respect.
There are exes that to this day, I still tell them I love them, and it is true. I do, and I think I always will. They made that sort of impact on my life. I'm not in love with them. (that's just unhealthy, as well as stalkerish)!!!
So to you I say, before you step into the arena of affection, sex, love etc, look carefully and see if this is a person that if things don't work out will still have my back, be a friend.
esjayce.
August 24, 2010
press play
time to press play, been on pause too long. need to write more. get it out, not keep it in. let the world (my select few readers) know whats on my mind.
wake up call
Recently I was working on a project with my dad. a weekend project, going on for several weekends now, and we are just about complete.
Its always fun doing stuff with my ole man.
I have learned so much from him and still have so much to learn.
We sit and discuss our plan of action, how best to do it, what we need etc.
some things can only be done by trial and error. but we get it done.
So in wrapping up on Sunday, daddy says 'one day all these tools will be your'.
i smiled, then frowned.
It was my wake up call, that one day i will have to take over the reigns of the family. As the first born there are certain expectations and responsibilities you will have...
Am i ready to assume such a role? full time?
yes but not yet. i still need my pops around to show me how to be a father. as they say grandchildren are parents revenge.
so daddy, yes I'm ready for the reigns, but can i ride shot gun for a bit longer.
love always
your proud son
S
Its always fun doing stuff with my ole man.
I have learned so much from him and still have so much to learn.
We sit and discuss our plan of action, how best to do it, what we need etc.
some things can only be done by trial and error. but we get it done.
So in wrapping up on Sunday, daddy says 'one day all these tools will be your'.
i smiled, then frowned.
It was my wake up call, that one day i will have to take over the reigns of the family. As the first born there are certain expectations and responsibilities you will have...
Am i ready to assume such a role? full time?
yes but not yet. i still need my pops around to show me how to be a father. as they say grandchildren are parents revenge.
so daddy, yes I'm ready for the reigns, but can i ride shot gun for a bit longer.
love always
your proud son
S
July 6, 2010
how soon?
How soon is too soon?
To let you know
what you do to me!
How soon is too soon?
Tell you what I feel'
what you mean to me?
This feeling inside
That has me thinking about you constantly!
Wanting to be with you,
Touch you, hold you,
Keep you, protect you.
Love you?
Hmmm, is it that serious?
All signs point in that direction.
Only time will reveal.
The butterflies flutter.
The pores raise!
The thought of the future
Our future makes me smile!
I'm falling
Every day, every moment.
Deeper and deeper!
The heart can't lie
What the head tries to deny!
Baby! I L...
Nah its too soon!
Esjayce!
To let you know
what you do to me!
How soon is too soon?
Tell you what I feel'
what you mean to me?
This feeling inside
That has me thinking about you constantly!
Wanting to be with you,
Touch you, hold you,
Keep you, protect you.
Love you?
Hmmm, is it that serious?
All signs point in that direction.
Only time will reveal.
The butterflies flutter.
The pores raise!
The thought of the future
Our future makes me smile!
I'm falling
Every day, every moment.
Deeper and deeper!
The heart can't lie
What the head tries to deny!
Baby! I L...
Nah its too soon!
Esjayce!
May 22, 2010
time out for a pause...
i have the need to vent but i dont know what to vent about, more so i dont know where to start. so im going to take a time out, collect my thoughts and get back to it...
March 16, 2010
grief
Grief.
Its a funny emotion. It hits you when you least expect it.
Today marked a year since my grandmother's passing.
I had been dreading it for the last month. Putting on a brave face and preparing for the dawn!
I woke up and felt fine. Went to work and thought about her but wasn't saddened! Spoke to a friend who made me laugh & smile.
After work I went to a cemetery where my last client is buried. I find solace there and usually talk to God.
I did and shed a tear but no break down.
Went home and was chilling.
Had music playing and Alicia Keys' songs Love is my disease started.
It starts 'when you are gone if feels like my whole world's gone with you'. That shook me. I've listened to that song hundreds of times and thought nice song.
It continues 'how can I ever get used to being without you'. I broke.
I realized how much she was a part of my life, my growth, me!
Shortly another song 'distance & time' started. That brought up fond memories of the time we shared.
Mom, I Love and miss you.
Steve...
Its a funny emotion. It hits you when you least expect it.
Today marked a year since my grandmother's passing.
I had been dreading it for the last month. Putting on a brave face and preparing for the dawn!
I woke up and felt fine. Went to work and thought about her but wasn't saddened! Spoke to a friend who made me laugh & smile.
After work I went to a cemetery where my last client is buried. I find solace there and usually talk to God.
I did and shed a tear but no break down.
Went home and was chilling.
Had music playing and Alicia Keys' songs Love is my disease started.
It starts 'when you are gone if feels like my whole world's gone with you'. That shook me. I've listened to that song hundreds of times and thought nice song.
It continues 'how can I ever get used to being without you'. I broke.
I realized how much she was a part of my life, my growth, me!
Shortly another song 'distance & time' started. That brought up fond memories of the time we shared.
Mom, I Love and miss you.
Steve...
February 21, 2010
Cautiously
Cautiously. His motto.
Everything in life he approached with caution.
Friendships, relationships, commitment.
Love.
He was the type that would walk into Love.
Making it easy to walk out.
And when the occasion arose,
He could run. Run away from love.
The fear factor of falling and possibly being hurt
Outweighed the reward of pure natural love.
Everything, everyone was a calculated move.
Time line, depth, trust.
But that only took him so far.
Far enough for him to be content
Yet on the down inside there was emptiness.
So he made a decision.
The next time his heart spoke to his head
And they were saying the same thing
He’d listen.
Actually let himself fall.
Then came along a friend.
He knew her but never knew her!
Time passed and the head started feeling what the heart knew.
And it was time to listen, time to fall.
No longer walking into love but
Really falling. Falling deeply in love.
The feeling so new and refreshing to him.
The free fall allowed him to fly.
The love took off, it soared.
Like nothing ever before
He knew that this was it.
Time to step it up.
Everything in life he approached with caution.
Friendships, relationships, commitment.
Love.
He was the type that would walk into Love.
Making it easy to walk out.
And when the occasion arose,
He could run. Run away from love.
The fear factor of falling and possibly being hurt
Outweighed the reward of pure natural love.
Everything, everyone was a calculated move.
Time line, depth, trust.
But that only took him so far.
Far enough for him to be content
Yet on the down inside there was emptiness.
So he made a decision.
The next time his heart spoke to his head
And they were saying the same thing
He’d listen.
Actually let himself fall.
Then came along a friend.
He knew her but never knew her!
Time passed and the head started feeling what the heart knew.
And it was time to listen, time to fall.
No longer walking into love but
Really falling. Falling deeply in love.
The feeling so new and refreshing to him.
The free fall allowed him to fly.
The love took off, it soared.
Like nothing ever before
He knew that this was it.
Time to step it up.
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